Well… to catch up Christmas was shockingly well. I gotta laptop! Welcome to 2005 for me, huh? Well the same things are going on in life. I have been unable to talk to my baby bc his phone is off. The cell phone in jail still gets me! But uhm, he tries to call me from another dudes phone but you know time is limited and we cant really communicate like we want.

Dont you hate being broke? I hate being broke. This was the cheapest Christmas I ever had to give. I still owe my father, brother, and cousins some gifts. Not to mention all tha other damn bills – life in general bills like electric, water, gas, you know. Life is hard. I never thought it would be this hard or this stressful … thats a lie. I just wasnt in such a rush to have it going on. I thought I would be somewhere else in life right now… at one time, but I am not that same person. And I am happy that I have become who I am. Not many ppl are happy in themselves. ButI am growing to love me more and more everyday. Every stretchmark or roll… If you dont love it, you dont love me. On my kinky days you better grease my scalp.

But dont confuse it… I still get hurt and I still am insecure just like the next lady some days. Such is life. You know? Its okay to be human I have learned. You make mistakes … you can make it as many times as you want to… until you take something from it. So Im willing to make mistakes. I am knee deep in debt but I am cleaning it up. Just one bill at a time… And that is how you do it.

Still love BBALL and FOOTBALL… slowly loving COLLEGE FOOTBALL. Cant wait until Jan 4. I aint doing nothin but watching the game. No calls, no nothing. My ass will be watching Reggie’nem beat Vince. (Im from Texas, but I just see USC takin it to them boys… so forgive me fellow Texans…. gotta go with my gut.)

That is all for now.

Hmm… So its been forever.

First of all… I am still with Wisdom. (9 mos and counting) I left Jabyron alone…  almost 2 mos ago. And I havent spoken with him since. He actually moved to the east coast to pursue the basketball future you know… and I hope it goes well with him bc the boy has skills. And plus he’s 6’8”… So he better had been able to do anything…

Anyway – I think I am gonna pursue being painted. This woman offered to paint me  – but I think she’s just tryna get in my draws and no… I loves me some men! lol… by the by – just for you – I am very interested in being painted! I think that would be a beautiful pic to give my baby when he gets out. So I am interested in that also – if you didnt know… ya girl can take some beautiful snapshots!!! Trust  me, I can be a model sometimes. And thats where all these photographers and painters have become interested. Bc I gotta photographer who wants me to model for a magazine. but you already know thats raunchy and I aint into it.

Oh well – just for the record. I been mia bc my job has firewalled the XANGA.COM site… so I been mia bc of that… and I might be mia for a while. They just decided to unblock MYSPACE! So… they kinda… weird.

Laters.

I still love my husband – WIZ!!!!